Friday, August 19, 2005

Over and Out

I started this blog for a specific reason to keep certain people in the loop of what I've been thinking and what I've been seeing. My initial euphoria of working in a publishing house has also settled down though I'm still very much liking my job. Thank fully. In any case, this blog has served it's purpose for the duration that I've actively been updating. However, the reason to start this blog is now defunct and it is no longer necessary to keep a journal of my mis-exploits. So there, this will be the last entry and Desultory MaDness will truly go where the dinosaurs went.

Tuesday, November 23, 2004

I'm Alive

I've not been posting for a long time. But rest assured I'm alive. At this very moment (hint: look at the timestamp) I have JUST returned from work. Although I do not work This late everyday. This is just to illustrate my point that I am really busy. Even if I come home earlier at normal hours, I tend to take the time to do personal stuff and sleep. I haven't even had time to read my books and I now have a whole pile of more than a dozen books which haven't been read. This does not even include books which friends have lent me.

Big things that happened since I last posted?

-Need for Speed Underground 2 was released.
-Medal of Honor Pacific Assault was released
-Half Life 2 was released (completed)
-Went to a book warehouse sale (bought more books)
-Authored my first DVD
-Done ALOT of writing.

So whats with my new job? I suppose I've written alot about it but never really disclosed what it entails. I've taken an editorial position with a prominent IT portal in Asia, HardwareZone I'm working as a writer for the online portal itself (they have a few printed publications as well) and have been busy the past month earning my keep. I tell ya, writing professionally is totally different from personal writing, like this blog for instance. I can rant off and spew my mind without worrying about spelling and grammar. I can use street slang more often than not. I don't have to me meticulous about details and factoids. I don't have to do graphs (Oh how I loathe Graphs) Don't mistake me. It's my dream job and I'm loving every moment of it. It's just that I don't really have the time to rant as long as I used to.

What I'll do is the next post, I'll dedicate it as my article tracker. I'll use that to constantly add the stuff I've done and has been published. Well, I still need to bathe... and relax a while before going zzzz. MaD out...

Thursday, November 04, 2004

Indecision Man. Coming to a theater somewhere.....maybe...not

What the Hell is going on? Now, I've decided to stay away from commenting on the US presidential race or anything political for that matter cause I didn't really want to spew crap onto my blog. However, this is just stupid.

Just in on CNN.com Kerry Calls Bush to Concede.

After the campaigning, after all the drawn out speeches and promises, after all the talk about fighting to the end, "You deserve no less". Now that we're right smack in the middle of vote consolidation, He calls up Bush to CONCEDE????? I mean even if he loses, well the Goddamn people will have decided. Did he just wake up from his nap and thought, "Why am I putting myself through this"...[dials Bush's number]..."Hey Bush, I don't think I want to play anymore... you go ahead and be President, k? bye"

While Bush has been the butt of many jokes about his intelligence and leadership (as far as I'm concern, true on all counts), Kerry is one indecisive mother. I mean, is this the best the US can put forward? The best candidates for the most powerful position in the country and arguably the world are a war-mongering idiot and a 10-year old in a candy shop???????

"President Kerry, the Al-Qaeda has just bombed Times Square. What shall we do?"
"Bomb them back"
"Are you sure?"
"Uh..ok maybe we just talk to them"
"But they just flattened Times Square"
"KIll the buggers then"
"I'll call the General"
"No Wait....why don't we setup a poll and see what the public wants"
"A Poll sir?"
"Yes, if the public wants me to attack, I'll do it... lets have tea for the time being... Is it too late to call Bush and concede? I don't like all these decisions."

Sunday, October 31, 2004

Innocence

Ghost in the Shell. I do have to admit, I initially did not care much for the anime. The only reason I picked it up was due to the fact that there was nudity, gunfights and robots. (I was young). All the techno, neo-realism mumbo jumbo was totally lost to me. When I began to appreciate more philosophical 'thinking' movies, I re-encountered the gem I missed. Much like the Sandman graphic novels (NOT comics), it took the 'older' me to appreciate. A 'cartoon' doesn't have to be brightly colored, fluffy,sweet and/or intellectually empty. In fact, I am now deeply rooted in the belief that it is an excellent medium to deliver serious material.

This brings us to Ghost in the Shell : Innocence. The show takes place after the first movie (For the uninitiated, the movies and the series exist exclusive of each other. So while there has been 2 seasons of the TV series running between the first movie and Innocence, the movies act as if the events in the series never happened and vice versa).

Let me start off by describing the quality of the animation and imagery. In one word, breathtaking. The blend of CGI and hand drawn art was so beautiful, I could have cried. The entire movie was a moving art gallery with a powerful soundtrack.

In the movie any good? Yes, tremendously so. I am not actually going to go into the storyline. There are sentiments out there saying that it's nothing more than a normal 20 minute episode stretched out to make a movie. I have to concur there as the plot is pretty basic. After 2 mangas, a movie and 2 seasons of a TV series, there really is nothing much left to delve into in terms of characters or universe. The GitS franchise has already attained cult status among many and character development has been deeply explored. Innocence drops you into the world assuming you are already fairly familiar with the setting.

While the plot is simple, the theme is far from it. The story is mainly used as a tool to help drive and maintain focus on the underlying motif, which is a philosophical and metaphysical look into humanity and existence.

Think of movies like Terminator, The Matrix, I,Robot or countless others where the human race is threatened by machines. Robots or AI which has gained conciousness , individuality....Life! But what happends when it is the humans who have become machines? In the GitS world, technological and medical advances have made it possible for mechanical or artificial implants for every part of the human body. In fact, it is possible to transfer ones brain and 'consiousness' into a fully cyborg body. A world where everyone is connected to the Net directly through neural implants and AI (software) can be used to enhance natural abilities and functions.

It is inevietable that metaphysical and religious questions arise to the nature of humanity and individualism. What constitutes as human? What constitutes life? Are you alive or are you merely a shell with a soul? Then you will need to ask what constitutes a soul or a 'ghost'? If a 'ghost' can be transferable to a machine, is the machine now alive? Is it human? Can a machine attain a 'ghost'? These are ongoing themes in the entire GitS series, but Innocence probes deeper into the topic becoming a philosphical enquiry into the meaning of life.

The show is strewn with quotes and paraphrases from philosophers, it begs you to look at views from human, machine and even third person perspective. I don't really know how to say it, but in most stories, the theme/plot/topic advances in a linear fashion. Innocence tends to lay everything out on the floor for you to examine yourself.

The heroine of the original movie, Major Motoko Kusanagi, only makes a brief apearance here. Due to an accident as a child, the Major is a full cyborg. In the first movie, we see her questioning her existence. Though she only makes a cameo appearance, her character in Innocence extends the life-death theme and is one of the religious approximations I find intriguing. I see the Major as Buddha, she has attained peace and 'enlightenment' in the sense she has evolved beyond the needs of her physical 'shell'.

Many people seem to find it tedious, slow and incomprehensible but I was exhilarated. Nothing like a 90 minute workout in the 'Mind Gym'. I actually found it easy to understand and I could narrate to the shows terms (I must be getting really smart.. heh!). I thoroughly enjoyed it although I have to say this movie must be experienced on the biggest screen you can find.


Let one live alone doing no evil, care-free, like an elephant in an elephant forest - Buddha (Dhammapada Chapter 23 : Nàga Vagga)

Existence

"What the individial creates is an expresion of the individual, just as the individual is the expression of its genes."
If the essence of life is the information that spreads through genes, society and culture are also nothing but huge memory systems. The city becomes the huge external memory device.

The doubt over that which looks alive is actually alive. The doubt that things without life might be alive
Science, which attempted to explain the phenomenon called 'life' played a role in producing this fear
The belief that nature can be calculated leads to the conclusion that humans can be broken down to simple machinery
"The human body is a machine which winds its own springs. It is the living image of perpetual movement"

"Most people are neither as happy or as unhappy as they imagine. What is important is not to get fed up with living and lose hope"

"The mirror is not a tool for realizing the truth, but for obscuring it"

Thursday, October 28, 2004

Snapshots of Forever

I've picked up a budding interest while on my new job, Photography. Yup, it's not something I would have usually bothered about. I've written before I'm not the artistic type. I treat the camera as something to point and click. The intricacies of "Manual" photography is something to be locked up in a dark corner and never explored. However, I now have to actually take photographs on the job, something which is not on the jobscope.. and believe you me, I had the toughest time.

I was so afraid I'd break something just by touching it. The studio lamps, flashes, expecially the cameras. I'm somewhat more comfortable now with the surroundings and I'm starting to try and move and adjust the lighting and sets to my liking. I'm also *gulp* learning about Spot Metering, Shutter Speeds, ISO Sensitivity, Aperture. Manually adjusting white balance, saturation, exposure. At least I don't have to retake my shots 3-4 times before it comes out right.... You don't know how much time is wasted just because it's a little dark or the focus is slightly off at the peripheries. Some things even Paint Shop Pro can't fix......

I still don't dare use the more expensive cameras though (there is a Nikon D70 digital SLR around the place), I feel like a total idiot using them, a rookie who does not deserve the prize.......yet!

This however sparked an interest and I feel like getting myself a good digital camera. I actually already own one, which I bought on impulse a few years ago. Not that it doesn't work, but it's the basic auto focus.. auto everything kind. It still takes good shots or so I thought...I'm starting to uncover a mountain and I'm just dusting off the surface.

Wednesday, October 27, 2004

When You Really Love Someone

Love you when you're right
Love you when you're wrong
Love you when you're weak
Love you when you're strong
Take you higher when the world got you feeling low
He's giving you his last, cause he’s thinking of you first
Giving comfort when he's thinking that you're hurt
That's what's done when you really love someone

Love you when you're right
Love you when you're wrong
Love you when you're weak
Love you when you're strong
Take you higher when the world got you feeling low
She's giving you her best, even when you’re at your worse
Giving comfort when she's thinking that you're hurt
That's what's done when you really love someone

Sometimes you're gonna argue, sometimes you're gonna fight
Sometimes it's gonna feel like it'll never be right
But something so strong keeps you hold’n on
It don't make sense but it makes a good song

So True!
Boy Do I regret missing the concert now.....

Tuesday, October 26, 2004

The SOURCE is With You

I have been harping about CS:Source for a very long time and how good it is, but there seems to be a general lack of enthusiasm among most of the people I know. I JUST found out why.....Many people are eagerly anticipating Half-Life2 and it seems that alot of people don't really know what it means or what it entails.

Many of us are jaded CS players, and people seem to go "So a new version of CS... why is this guy going on and on and on".
Even the namesake given CS:Source does not ring a bell. "You already have Half-life, why are you paying for the Silver package just to get Half-life again???".....After the fourth or fifth person asking the same questions. I decided to write this.

Source is the codename given for the Engine behind Half-Life2. So CS:Source, DoD:Source and even Half-Life 1:Source will mean that all these games are totally overhauled with the new Source engine.

Think of games like Mohaa, Jedi Knight, RTCW.. and all the rest of the games which are made based on Quake3 engine..Same concept.

What makes a game? Story and Gameplay packaged around some Graphics engine.
- Half-Life was a hit because of a great story
- CS was a hit because of the multi-player gameplay
So what happens when you totally remake the above games with the latest graphics engines? Full-Life!

Now ask yourselves this..."If I've never played the original Half-Life before, what will Half-Life:Source mean to me?"

HOLY CRAPOLA! MORE DOOOOM!

SANTA MONICA, Calif., Oct. 25 /PRNewswire-FirstCall/ -- id Software(TM) and Activision, Inc. (Nasdaq: ATVI - News) will unleash an all-new assault on humanity with DOOM 3: Resurrection of Evil(TM), the official expansion pack to the fastest selling PC first- person action game ever in the U.S., according to NPD Techworld. Co-developed by Nerve Software and id Software, DOOM 3: Resurrection of Evil continues the terrifying and intense action of the already classic DOOM 3, which Maxim and Computer Gaming World awarded "five out of five stars" and the Associated Press called "one of the scariest games ever made." Through the discovery of a timeless and evil artifact you now hold the powers of Hell in your hands, and the demons have come to hunt you down and take it back. Following the events of DOOM 3 and featuring new locations, characters and weapons, including the return of the double-barreled shotgun, DOOM 3: Resurrection of Evil expands the terrifying action that fans and critics have been raving about. The title will require the full retail version of DOOM 3, and has not yet been rated by the ESRB.

"DOOM 3 defines first-person cinematic action, and the expansion pack continues right where we left off -- with a terrifying atmosphere, a new story and one of the most classic weapons ever, the double-barreled shotgun," states Todd Hollenshead, CEO, id Software. "Now that fans have survived the horrors and edge of your seat action of the original, DOOM 3: Resurrection of Evil delivers players deeper into the heart of the UAC to uncover new secrets and technology used to destroy the demon force that's Hell-bent on destroying you."

Building on the most advanced game engine ever created, DOOM 3: Resurrection of Evil continues the frightening and gripping single player experience of the blockbuster original. The title also features even more multiplayer action with support for up to eight players in all new maps.